i'm hungry. are you?

linger

have i missed out too much on the good ole days, where teens could be carefree, when running around naked was thought to be cool, when we only lived for the day and nothing mattered but having fun.

sometimes i do feel ive grown a little too old, a little too fast. the heaps of responsibilities to run by and the constant pressures on myself has only brought back loneliness and a sense of unaccomplishment which makes me feel so out of touch.

i wonder sometimes, have i done the right things in the past. have i given up the right things for something new?

the emotional clock ticks way too slow.

to add, ive been dumped with the fact that ive grown fat, and i'm very very displeased with that. i'm still maintaining a healthy <70kg, but the tummy still bulges, which is a very awful thought may i add. and my shoulders seem smaller. i bet my tummy has shrouded the real broadness of my shoulders. i'm sounding like some paranoid bulmic girl. i still do have my strength there. but size still matters. cause it matters that the new batch of freshies are coming in, in 2 weeks time. ive got to shapen up. but not on this attachment. it's driving me nuts. all i do is have a pack of wang wang and the computer terminal which is actively on friendster, cause youtube is unavailable, due to the lack of computer mouths(speakers) that these biopolis computers provide. a very horrid thought, i agree.

things to do within 2 months:
-get rid of fats
-do 40 pullups
-quit gnikoms
-run a 8.30
-get back laptop
-get back harddisk
-snap out of disbelief

the rest will be updated.
these are realistic goals. i dont see how i cannot do so... i can do it...

gtg sleep. emo is homo

posted by jonathan @ 1:24 AM