i'm hungry. are you?

comforting sounds

would it be even for 1/2 hr, or 10 secs, i should be thankful for every minute i have. every minute i spend. even idling.

i read a post sometime ago happiness, and how one yearns for it, is one who is sad. rather to be contented to has been given. why should we worry about what the future has to bring, for it is being planned in accordance by the Divine.

it's amazing how within a span of 4-5 months, a special friend now, had been a complete stranger before, and how within a shorter span of time, that we change. for the better and for the worse. the thing is, after what i thought to just a night out to have an emotional release, i end up thinking more about what is to come. bad thing? i wouldnt think so if you looked at a broader perspective. if i actually do think about it, it may actually turn out to be a good thing. i use to often complain about what i lost, and now that i am lost, i might actually be on the right track to finding my way.

what bothers me? is this sense of loss i think i would feel in the future. i'm too afraid of loosing what i tried so hard to find. i refuse to loose it, cause i know, i'm into something too deep here.

then again, why should i be lingering in bother when ive already had happiness? i'm satisfied.

thank you.

posted by jonathan @ 12:05 AM