i'm hungry. are you?

lesson learnt

coming to the end of january, i've come to realize much about life again. (AWW! JON! SO PHILOSOPHICAL! FUCK U! LOL!) well merely. the past few events have opened my eyes to a deeper truth that i failed to realize before, but thank god it's open now - like moral of a story from a deep ass movie you'd watch maybe twice a year.



might i say, i made things really complicated for me. most of which was really not needed. it's a craft of my own doings. had i really thought hard about what was in front of me and not just crave power or attention in an indirect way, such meltdowns would not be necessary.



right now, as much of a control on my life i trying to grip on, i feel a certain sense of nostalgia which a urge to purge right now.

social night is over, and i'll post up the photos as soon as i get them.

my priorities are somewhat set for the year.. i've thought this over and over, and i've decided to row my heart out again. here comes the sun and the aches. however there's this blockade in front of me that i hope that would be cleared after tomorrow.

i've been feeling lousy lately, and it's probably because of the field pack pts and gym sessions i've been having these past few days. i've seriously become somewhat unfit, and i want to get it back up.

as unrealistic as it is, i've been daydreaming of picking up a water sport - maybe canoeing or sculling, and working really hard and maybe make an olympic gold. however such thoughts are really far fetched. that would mean i have to give up char kuay tiao and alot of nice food.

somehow getting ns over and done with and actually going overseas seems like the most savourest choice right now. i feel that doing so, would allow me to restart my life all over again. put on new set of priorties, that do not need and repercussions of my past to keep up with me.

my birthday is the next event i'm holding. attendence seems strong, however i hope they keep to their word. i'm gonna be calling you all soon to confirm.

how does being a doctor cum property developer sound like?

posted by jonathan @ 4:03 PM