i'm hungry. are you?

turn smile shift repeat

i have to relief some of the stress that i hold inside again.

its just one of those things where u just cant get it off your chest. its one of those things that u want so badly, but cant bear to put your arms around it. no i'm not talking abt things that are materialistic. it just keeps me wondering : what if? what if i had her. would life be so much more better? would i be happier? would be it forever? where only the undercertainties barracades me from what i want. and what if i get it, what happens after that? i so desperately want something out of it. but yet again i dont, cause i'm enjoying what i have already, and i dont want to change that for something which outcome is uncertain, which present is a vivid mask that haunts me each minute of the day, that forces me to go crazy, in a stalking mode, so servere that it has become addictive and scary. time was only so short that we've known each other - am i expecting too much, for i'm a sucker of love?

this is fucking ridiculous. because i'm staying away so that i dont do anything stupid. forgive my insecurities.

posted by jonathan @ 10:28 PM