i'm hungry. are you?

fuck u all

fuck u all for crucifying me without me knowing the nails are going through my palms.

posted by jonathan @ 11:52 PM 0 Comments

shattered galaxy

my pertetual string of misfortune in every walks of life has left me with depressing offerings that everyone is doing well and happy.
i cant help the way i feel especially when nothing really goes my way and that there is always someone better than me or have to show it off to me just rub some salt into my wounds. it seems i'm not going to be happy go lucky that i normally should and i have a feeling it's going to damage some relationships out there. whatever it is, the future seems pretty bleek a few more years down the road and i wonder where all my friends have gone to.
what i do hope however is that a raging driver maybe outside holland v could run me over so that i could be in a coma for a week or 2 so that i do not have to worry about myself or other people. as selfish as it is - i wonder why i always make people around me happy, forfeting my own happiness that i've forgetten how to attain. this year so far has been completely shattered. and i often find myself alone crying.

posted by jonathan @ 2:27 PM 0 Comments

i've got a problem. it's personal

and i cant do some things

posted by jonathan @ 1:36 AM 0 Comments

not

i'm not the smartest kid out there
and i definitely know i'm not the luckiest.
i'm not rich enough to afford the world
and i definitely know i don't like brands that i see in the front of hotels.
i'm not the most good looking of sons
and i definitely know i dont pay much attention to my appearance.

i'm so sorry if i've been a lousy person,
but it doesnt help if you all push me down.
if encouragement is so hard to come by because of an ego,
then i guess i'm better off by myself.
i'm not everything you want, or need,
but i'm definitely still human.

posted by jonathan @ 12:15 AM 0 Comments