what's your favourite dinosaur
oh my gudness
i was on way to the bus stop to meet my date for the evening last night, when i happen to stumble across a family of 4, whereby, the 2 children were of the age of 6 max, and they looked rather petite. as i looked furthur to the floor, i caught my eyes upon 2 smaller animals that size of my calves. these mammals moved their legs faster than my eyes blinked and they had a snout that i find rather, ugly. my 2 legged friends, i present to you chi hua huas from mars. damn they were adorable.
hungry and ready to go
remember the days when you craved that cake in the window, where you stood a few inches from it, but you just can't get to it, because that sheet of silicon oxide is just too impermeable?
well oh well, i'm feeling that right at this instance. the difference is, that window, is my lab and that retarded protein column that debarrs my Tris-HCl to flow through with swift motion, and what i crave for is a chicken foldover meal, fries without salt, drink change to coke lite.
comforting sounds
would it be even for 1/2 hr, or 10 secs, i should be thankful for every minute i have. every minute i spend. even idling.
i read a post sometime ago happiness, and how one yearns for it, is one who is sad. rather to be contented to has been given. why should we worry about what the future has to bring, for it is being planned in accordance by the Divine.
it's amazing how within a span of 4-5 months, a special friend now, had been a complete stranger before, and how within a shorter span of time, that we change. for the better and for the worse. the thing is, after what i thought to just a night out to have an emotional release, i end up thinking more about what is to come. bad thing? i wouldnt think so if you looked at a broader perspective. if i actually do think about it, it may actually turn out to be a good thing. i use to often complain about what i lost, and now that i am lost, i might actually be on the right track to finding my way.
what bothers me? is this sense of loss i think i would feel in the future. i'm too afraid of loosing what i tried so hard to find. i refuse to loose it, cause i know, i'm into something too deep here.
then again, why should i be lingering in bother when ive already had happiness? i'm satisfied.
thank you.
linger
have i missed out too much on the good ole days, where teens could be carefree, when running around naked was thought to be cool, when we only lived for the day and nothing mattered but having fun.
sometimes i do feel ive grown a little too old, a little too fast. the heaps of responsibilities to run by and the constant pressures on myself has only brought back loneliness and a sense of unaccomplishment which makes me feel so out of touch.
i wonder sometimes, have i done the right things in the past. have i given up the right things for something new?
the emotional clock ticks way too slow.
to add, ive been dumped with the fact that ive grown fat, and i'm very very displeased with that. i'm still maintaining a healthy <70kg, but the tummy still bulges, which is a very awful thought may i add. and my shoulders seem smaller. i bet my tummy has shrouded the real broadness of my shoulders. i'm sounding like some paranoid bulmic girl. i still do have my strength there. but size still matters. cause it matters that the new batch of freshies are coming in, in 2 weeks time. ive got to shapen up. but not on this attachment. it's driving me nuts. all i do is have a pack of wang wang and the computer terminal which is actively on friendster, cause youtube is unavailable, due to the lack of computer mouths(speakers) that these biopolis computers provide. a very horrid thought, i agree.
things to do within 2 months:
-get rid of fats
-do 40 pullups
-quit gnikoms
-run a 8.30
-get back laptop
-get back harddisk
-snap out of disbelief
the rest will be updated.
these are realistic goals. i dont see how i cannot do so... i can do it...
gtg sleep. emo is homo
chi fan chia fan
If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there
The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanour
But one of us misread...
And what do you know
It happened again
In the midst of all comforts, and even the damn rain, i'm left in the office,
in my own little lonely cubicle. the closest person who can relate to me, mark, has a whole room to himself.
even then, i'm made to dwell on how fortunate ive been since entering 2007. yes, the usual ups and downs, nevertheless, it's been an adventure worth sharing with my grandchildren of which i hope they all become soccer players tagged along with the calibre of eto and xavi alonso.
id like to think that everything is ok, but i keep stumbling upon pictures of rumbling stones that seem to rock my foundations. i just need some assurance, constant reassurance. id like to be treated like a girl. NO! just say yes.
hor fun for lunch was a super big mistake.
cows and milk
the past few days were meant to be the best days of the year 2007 with training camp and loads of fun with the team mates. also to joke around at work and maybe to catch up with the old mates of which i've procrastinated so much away from.
if i do reflect back, i would have enjoyed it so much more if the colossal feeling of being lost had not hit me with a phone call, and an amount of displeasure from mom.
to run away from a problem only makes one a cowardly scam that is decadent to my wellbeing.
i therefore propose i stop this swearing and constant sighing, and run head on to the problem, not with anger, not with rage, but with an open mind.
training camp was a blast, with the hardcore seas hitting the toy boats and the constant shouting and difficult times that bond us so much more. it's times like this where i feel, dragonboat, is the right thing i have done.
drey has been the sweetest around! =)
sherry got my back!
bert's always there
just a few pics before the camera died out on me
it isnt how hard you hit, it's about how hard you get hit and you stand up and move on that matter
