lesson learnt
coming to the end of january, i've come to realize much about life again. (AWW! JON! SO PHILOSOPHICAL! FUCK U! LOL!) well merely. the past few events have opened my eyes to a deeper truth that i failed to realize before, but thank god it's open now - like moral of a story from a deep ass movie you'd watch maybe twice a year.
might i say, i made things really complicated for me. most of which was really not needed. it's a craft of my own doings. had i really thought hard about what was in front of me and not just crave power or attention in an indirect way, such meltdowns would not be necessary.
right now, as much of a control on my life i trying to grip on, i feel a certain sense of nostalgia which a urge to purge right now.
social night is over, and i'll post up the photos as soon as i get them.
my priorities are somewhat set for the year.. i've thought this over and over, and i've decided to row my heart out again. here comes the sun and the aches. however there's this blockade in front of me that i hope that would be cleared after tomorrow.
i've been feeling lousy lately, and it's probably because of the field pack pts and gym sessions i've been having these past few days. i've seriously become somewhat unfit, and i want to get it back up.
as unrealistic as it is, i've been daydreaming of picking up a water sport - maybe canoeing or sculling, and working really hard and maybe make an olympic gold. however such thoughts are really far fetched. that would mean i have to give up char kuay tiao and alot of nice food.
somehow getting ns over and done with and actually going overseas seems like the most savourest choice right now. i feel that doing so, would allow me to restart my life all over again. put on new set of priorties, that do not need and repercussions of my past to keep up with me.
my birthday is the next event i'm holding. attendence seems strong, however i hope they keep to their word. i'm gonna be calling you all soon to confirm.
how does being a doctor cum property developer sound like?
ac/dc
i've been trying constantly these few months to keep a positive out look on how i've been. however as expected, certain circumstances forces one to be out of line where his vision is. life isnt perfect - we all would have probably figured that one out already.
i've understood all so suddenly the impact of racisism. for it has dawned upon me, i am very much of a racists. i've realized i do not click well with this certain race, of which i will not state due to the political nature of singapore.
i have encountered a number of times with such a situation. and i feel this unrequired urge to eradicate them. however i refuse to do so because i might get jailed.
anyway, i'm hardly such an angry fella now, though, there's this need to get this out before i do something mad. released i am.
kiwi
i'm pretty glad that kaka didnt move to man city today. ironic that he's a hundred miles away and i feel so much for such an insane move that costs an insane amount of money. i guess that's the spirit of soccer.
htbc is coming to a close, and enjoying the company of iylia and ariel in the same lecture hall and over meals must be one that i'd be damn thankful for. i thought entering into police would be a dull affair because most of my peers would probably be working together, sharing the same sentiments, in the SAF. but now i take that back i feel a certain sense of cohesion amongst my home team counterparts.
lights out was 15 mins ago, and i should get to bed, it's late, and i'm fatigued already.
i am however happy about how things are working out.
things to do:
-sort out social night
-sort out credit cards
-sort out birthday celebrations
-sort out priorities
4 things to do. very managable...
oh wait.
-sort out procrastination
SPECIAL! THE WAY YOU ROCKET THROUGH ME AHH!!!!
being sick sucks but i still love the weekends.
i'm gonna be passing out in 4 months, and i already can't wait. it's about bloody time, and my birthday is abt in a month's time. plans are going smoothly and i'm excited like candy to a child.
i'm tired as hell right now, but i can't help smiling about how happy i am... i think ate too much sweets...
for the soul
so, i checked my attendance for my birthday, and it seems pretty healthy now, i'll post out more invitations when i remember who i've forgotten this weekend.
however, i am particularly upset that after 4 days of the event's posting's, i've finally recieved
1 'NOT ATTENDING'. i have called that person, and i am particularly dissappointed, having been promised that she would attend.
so this note is to that person's boyfriend - 'fuck you, cause you'd probably need some counselling'
note to that person - 'please consider'
anyhow htbc has been fucking awesome, except that i was down the flu.
sickness
i've come down with the flue bug on the first day of htbc, which really is very untimely, for the fact there is no pt for the next 2 weeks and that i had to spend my time suffering my the confinements of my barrack.
i was cold as beer but i knew my temperature was well above the normal range and my head kept spinning round like a record player baby round round.
nevetheless, my buddy was really nice bringing my my dinner which i found to be rather bad especially when you're sick, and also polly for being the sweetest.
invitations to my birthday has been sent out via facebook, please look upon it and rsvp, i need the no.s soon. for those who dont have me as your friend - wtf are u waiting for?!
hail the king of the set!
this man right here gave me an orgasm.
makes me wonder why couldnt i be born dutch
level up!
the good gracious corporation of the force decided to give me back my 2 bars as a mark of my seniority in the lovely location of home team academy. the fact that i've out stayed my expected due in this place, i suppose i should get 3 instead. but nevetheless, it's been great so far and and i am enjoying it alot.
next week would be HTBC with iylia which is gonna be double the fun cause that means ariel, iylia and i would unite to become as one against our peers. heh
armin van buuren tonight... the gawd has arrived.
